Saturday, July 5, 2008
me-stupid.
Let me just say that it is indeed correct that one has the inspiration to write when she is strucked by sadness, depression, loneliness or any emotion synonymous to those for that matter.
so yes, i begin. I am broken.broken. all because of that stupid thing called love. i hate myself for being so vulnerable and gullible 99% of the times. I hate it. I shouldn't have trusted him, his innocence. Or maybe the innocence was just a lie. EVERYTHING WAS JUST A LIE. Or maybe i was just deceived with the thought of right timing and right man. He came just in time. and i think anybody can be the right man for as long as he proves himself like he did. and i was just so incredibly gullible and stupid and a complete idiot that i had fallen for the innocence of his eyes, the sincerity of his words, the sweetness of his kiss, the warmth of his young but tight embrace. it was all that a girl like me would ever want. its all i ever wanted. just being there, with him. moments that would make you say,"this time i got it right." It seems perfect and i never wanted to let go of that moment. and when i look back at it now, i wanted to erase the memory. wish it never happened because it would be a lot easier for me to let it loose. it was so fast that even i hadnt saw it coming. it was too perfect to end so soon. everything went well. we were great. i thought we were..
we had great times together, enjoyed each other's company. i, i never wanted any moments with him to end, you know that feeling when all you wanted is to just listen to his soft voice, feel his arms around you, laugh together,just there, watching the whole world pass you by.
i cant do this anymore. its not doing me any good. now tears are falling down my eyes again, and i just cant help but let myself drown in it. theres too many emotions, too many of it. and maybe, tomorrow, some of it will be gone, till the next days that it will all be done. and my eyes are dry again. i wish. ='(
it is every girl's wish to see herself happy with a man who would protect her from all the evil that there is in the world. it is my dream. but more than that, i want a man, who promises to take good care of my heart, hold it carefully so it wont break. I want a man who's heart is willing to stay beside mine, till everything else around us fades away.
i guess, there's really no happy ending for me.
=(
so yes, i begin. I am broken.broken. all because of that stupid thing called love. i hate myself for being so vulnerable and gullible 99% of the times. I hate it. I shouldn't have trusted him, his innocence. Or maybe the innocence was just a lie. EVERYTHING WAS JUST A LIE. Or maybe i was just deceived with the thought of right timing and right man. He came just in time. and i think anybody can be the right man for as long as he proves himself like he did. and i was just so incredibly gullible and stupid and a complete idiot that i had fallen for the innocence of his eyes, the sincerity of his words, the sweetness of his kiss, the warmth of his young but tight embrace. it was all that a girl like me would ever want. its all i ever wanted. just being there, with him. moments that would make you say,"this time i got it right." It seems perfect and i never wanted to let go of that moment. and when i look back at it now, i wanted to erase the memory. wish it never happened because it would be a lot easier for me to let it loose. it was so fast that even i hadnt saw it coming. it was too perfect to end so soon. everything went well. we were great. i thought we were..
we had great times together, enjoyed each other's company. i, i never wanted any moments with him to end, you know that feeling when all you wanted is to just listen to his soft voice, feel his arms around you, laugh together,just there, watching the whole world pass you by.
i cant do this anymore. its not doing me any good. now tears are falling down my eyes again, and i just cant help but let myself drown in it. theres too many emotions, too many of it. and maybe, tomorrow, some of it will be gone, till the next days that it will all be done. and my eyes are dry again. i wish. ='(
it is every girl's wish to see herself happy with a man who would protect her from all the evil that there is in the world. it is my dream. but more than that, i want a man, who promises to take good care of my heart, hold it carefully so it wont break. I want a man who's heart is willing to stay beside mine, till everything else around us fades away.
i guess, there's really no happy ending for me.
=(
